It's dirty, it's filthy, it's paradise.

First off, I do have better things to do with my life besides bashing people on the internet. But I WANT to do this. And some of you might not like what I’m going to say. Frankly, I don’t care.

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Kyle Helton is an idiot. Not so much in a retarded kind of way but.. pretty much in a retarded kind of way. He made me a promise awhile back that NO girl would get in the way of our friendship. Hence the word friendship. I don’t think he understood that word. Anyways, most of my guy friends let girls get in the way of our friendship to the point where I can’t call them, text them, anything. Kyle seen how upset that made me before with other people and thats why he made this promise to me. Well, like a typical boy, he did not follow through with that. And might I add, that this girl that got in the middle of our friendship happens to live across the United States. Yeah, my first thought was “somethings gotta be wrong with her” too. I mean, if she can’t get anyone in her town, her state, or any of the other surronding states theres gotta be something wrong. 

Then I thought, “Out of everyone she picked Kyle Helton. Bahahaha!” 

Lets just say, anyone could do better.

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Moving onward. 

Ohh buddy where do I begin with this one. I’m not saying the name of this guy mainly for the fact that I don’t want to put up with his sarcastic a$s. Now, I know if he ever sees this hes going to come up with the meanest and most sarcastic things to say back if he catches on. Then I’m not going to really have anything to say. But I know as well as most girls that have talked to this guy that he’s very indecisive and a liar. He loves you one moment right. For about, uh I don’t know, two-three months tops. And then BOOM. All the sudden you’re a big whore for texting him a lot or showing interest in him. Yeah. When really he just doesn’t have the balls to say something like “I like someone else and have been talking to them and will probably do the same thing to them that I just did to you.” He tries to hide the fact that he’s a playerrrr. Not from everyone else, but from himself. Yet somehow, he can always make you fall for him over again. Not too long ago though he tried to start this whole cycle over but I blew him off.

Probably the best thing I’ve ever done. Just so everyone knows though, I have no feelings for this kid except empathy. 

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Now for Cierra Manns. I don’t know what her problem is with me and I may never know.. Maybe it’s the fact that Craig Bayes ditched her at a party to hang out with and all over me or the fact that I’m dating the guy who I’m pretty sure took her virginity. Frankly dear, it’s not me you should be mad at. I mean, I can’t help it if the guys you like, like me more. I really cant. And yeah, I’m not the greatest looking girl out there but obviously they like something, right. And it’s obviously something you do not have. It must really suck to be you. I’m just going to leave it at that. 

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Oh, And for anyone that doesn’t like Craig…Honestly, I don’t care if you do or not. Everyone on Gods green earth that doesn’t like him feels its necessary to tell me that they don’t like him. However, I have YET to hear a good reason for someone to not like him. Yeah, when it comes to relationships or just girls I guess Craig’s not the greatest guy to be with. But from my experiences, most guys are the same way. It’s just that girls want Craig because he’s cute and funny. ..I don’t think Kenton girls understand the word friendship either. ..Basically my point is that I actually like Craig as a friend. And as I would for any other of my friends I’m going to stick up for him. So if you want to talk bad about him, don’t talk about it to me. 

I’ll be looking forward to the “I’m going to beat you up you stupid ugly cunt” comments. Say whatever you want. It’s not going to bother me. In fact, I’m already over it. (:

jarrodmatthew:

withreggaeton:

 the only one i really needed help with isn’t even that clear (effect/affect) its like ~most of the time, well most of the time doesn’t help all of the time fool

That enjoys piercings and tattoos as much as I do. That would love going to shows. That would be weird with me. That’s always there for me. That can share clothes with me. That I could go to parties with and be content just talking to her. That is just down right awesome..

I swear, sometimes its harder to find good girl friends than it is boyfriends.

Back in the day, all my “bro-friends” had this one girl who was like, OBSESSED with them. And the girl didn’t like that fact that I was their friend mainly because of the awesomeee relationship we shared as friends. (If you’re a girl whose one of the bros you probably know where I’m coming from.) Anyways, the guy usually blew me off to hang out with this girl to have sex or whatever, right.

Now, years later, all these girls are adding me on Facebook. They never talk to me though, which is pointless. I hope some of them read this. But like, I tell my bro-friends about it right, and every single one says “Don’t accept them. They tried adding me and I said f*ck that.” Haha

<3

That I’ve had dreams about you.

To see your dead sibling, relative, or friend alive in your dream, indicates that you miss them and are trying to relive your old experiences you had with them. In trying to keep up with the pace of your daily waking life, you dreams may serve as your only outlet in coping and coming to terms with the loss of a loved one.

We looked at pictures together.

I asked you about heaven, but you couldn’t answer anything.

Which is okay.

Then,

I asked if you’re always listening to us..

You nodded your head up and down.

I asked if you could listen to us all at once..

You nodded your head up and down. 

(:

Just because your gone doesn’t mean you’ve stopped listening or helping us. 

And I needed to know that.

It’s nice to know that there’s always going to be someone there to help.

..I’m so glad it’s you. 

This is going to be completely random. Just, things I’ve been thinking a lot about for the past week or so..

• I think it’s really stupid when you’re “talking” to someone and then things just fade, they get a new girlfriend before you do anything with anybody, and then you finally kiss someone or something and THEY get mad at you for it. I don’t know if they realize this but they kinda moved on. So, I kinda moved on. And then you have to argue your point but somehow you’re wrong. When really we both know whose right. So it’s pretty much a pointless argument. Yet they’re still mad at you. 
• Whenever I get a boyfriend, everyone living on Gods green earth says “Kelsey, you can do better. Blahblah.” YET, when I’m single God forbid someone shows any interest in me. It’s like, everyones happy that I’m single except for me but no one wants anything more with me. Then as soon as I get a boyfriend that’s legit, everyone freaks out and decides that THATS the time to show interest. Well f*ck that. Get at me when I’m single or don’t get at me at all. When I have a boy, I stick with him 100%. Yeah, maybe I could do better but I’m the kind of person to accept peoples flaws and learn to love them. For all I know Mr. Perfect could live on the other side of the world. Or I could be dating him right now. It just depends on your perspective.
• My plan for December 21, 2012 or whatever the date is, is to do a ton of sleeping drugs. If I wake up and everything is normal I’ll be happy. And If I die, well it will be in my sleep so whatever.
• Girls. Wait, let me rephrase that, immature girls. Let me tell you, they will find anything and everything to ruin something you got. Now, I know I’m not the best looking girl in the world. And I know that if you don’t pick the right guy that he could easily be influenced to do stupid stuff with the prettier girls. But If a guy is willing to cheat on a less pretty girl who has a heart of gold and a kick butt personality with a prettier girl who follows drama and probably has genital warts or something crazy than he wasn’t that great of a guy to begin with. And if that ever happens to me I’m not going to be mad at all. One day I know that he will come back to me saying “I miss you, I’m such an idiot, I’ve changed, blahblah.” ..I’ve learned that theres nothing a guy wants more than something he can’t have. More girls should know that.
• Texting. I hate it. It ruins a lot. I wish the conversations I had over texting were in person. I’d have so much more respect and love for people if they said what they really thought to my face. 
• I swear I am psychic when it comes to certain people. Like, if I looked into it more I could probably predict what would happen next with certain people. Right now I only get this feeling and like “signs” I guess you could say… For example, last night I had this feeling about my friend Brandon. I haven’t talked to him in about a month or so. I kept getting signs with him in it. Just things reminding me or something that dealt with Brandon. And then I woke up to a missed call and a text from him. It’s like I knew he was going to get a hold of me but I didn’t. ..Just sort of weird.
• The purpose of my life. Or anyones for that matter. We’re all going to die. There must be something bigger. There has to be. 

Theres more. 

I just don’t feel like writing about it..